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Trigger warning: body image, dieting

What betterĀ inauguralĀ post to make on this blog than one about motivation? Cuz that’s where I am right now. I’ve been here for a few weeks and I’ve been able to fight it off, but the past couple of days have been particularly difficult. It’s a struggle to put on a workout – any workout – and it’s a struggle to get through it. I only give about 40% because that is as much concern as I can muster, and only giving 40% means I don’t enjoy the workout at all, which means I’m less inclined to do it the next day.

I’m not sure if my fatty exercise brethren have experienced this before, but the old, bad ways of thinking are creeping into my head. I have to do something to offset the days when I don’t workout or don’t workout as hard. If I stop now, things will never change.

That’s all crap. The only thing I have to do to offset the days when I don’t workout or don’t workout as hard is to find a new activity I’ll enjoy, which will snap me out of my indifference. And if I stop now, I’ll just be wasting all this muscle, strength, and endurance I’ve built up and that is what I don’t want to lose. Inches don’t matter. Pounds don’t matter. But I’ve gotten accustomed to how my body feels now and I don’t want to give that up. So I have to find a way to push through the boredom and lack of motivation. I have to find a way to steer my brain away from the negative (I can’t do this, I don’t want to do this, this activity is pointless, etc.) and trick my body into ignoring that little voice in my head when I am in the middle of a workout.

This is my game plan:

  1. Build on my collection of belly dance videos (you’ll discover my obsession with belly dance soon enough),
  2. Scour the internet for other fun routines to add to my rotation, and
  3. Don’t panic

What about you? How do you snap yourself out of this place?